Every girl deserves a guy that will think the world of them. That can treat her will respect and not make excuses to her or give her the run around.

What kind of man does it make you if you only text her when you want to get laid and wont reply when she texts you. It does not make you a good guy to start off being so wonderful to make her fall in love with you and then revert to awful ways. If she thinks the world of you and treats you well, then if you can't do the same especially when you've been with the person for a long time, then you're not a respectable guy.

I deserve a man that cares about my well being and can be there for me. I don't need a man who treats me like I'm there for their convenience. I have a heart and I love and I don't deserve to have that stomped on to fill selfish wants and needs.

Love

Ever since my car accident, I've been a mess of a person. For months I would sleep all day to avoid everything and it was the worst depression I've experienced. Im glad I had the strength to come through it and the amazing best friends to help me. Also my family of course even if I didn't have them around all the time and they weren't fully knowing of how bad it was.

This is the first time since then that I feel truly happy and see bright things ahead. Occasionally I'd get happy but i would stress and wouldn't think things would ever fully be great.

I finally got a wonderful job that I will now have for fall. My babysitting job is great but it will end come fall and I do need even more income to pay off debt and for rent and everything this fall. I have a true group of friends that are incredible people. Then an absolutely amazing family. Even if it's not perfect right now with every single person, I won't be devastated since it will work itself out. Along with all that I have finally found strength to not be hurt by not having the person I've wanted for so long. I feel as if I can move on which is an amazing feeling. Also to add my health is finally wonderful again. It just took six months of treatment but I am feeling great. No more daily migraines, back issues, or nausea! :)

I finally feel whole and I love my life. I don't need someone else to make me happy which I've struggled with in the past. I'm excited for the road ahead and starting my new job. No more sitting around and being sad, time to fully live life again. :)

Strength

I feel like I only write on this during hard times but that's when I really have the inspiration to sit and write. I've said before when it was the toughest time of my life and it happens again. My strength has been tested immensely and I almost came to not being able to make it through last week. It was ironic when I had said that things couldn't get worse and oh did they. My strength, faith, and beliefs were very much tested. I couldn't figure out why god would make me want to give up. I can't say I'm completely better but I feel like it was to make me stronger. I feel the strongest I have ever been right now.

I'm still waiting for things to get better. I won't disclose any of the big things that happened last week since honestly they aren't things I want to tell people and I don't want to relive them. It's not anything I did, they're just screwed up things. I do just hope I can get a job soon and I'm in the process of moving on from someone who I know I've had very strong feelings for for a long time. Right now I just want to work, have school, and be alone and find myself. I've realized that as much as there is only one man I want to be with, I don't want to right now and I don't want to be with someone else. I just want to keep busy and find happiness again. I need to be confident again and hopefully see that I am good enough. Once guys continually walk away or you get turned down for a job to people much younger, it really hurts.

I fully believe being positive will bring about great things and I think this could be an amazing summer. I'll be writing more often. This will help me too. I think it helps too to not keep everything bottled up. If I keep my depression from people and they can't understand it, then well it's not going to be a good thing. That's all I have. I do have to say that without my parents, siblings, and best friends, I honestly don't think I'd be here right now. I don't think they know just his much they have helped me and I'm so grateful for that.

All the times i've tried that became so har