fulfillment

16 credits, two jobs, and one hell of a social life. This year has started out wonderfully. Without a doubt i'm insanely busy, but everything is just great. I'm working hard yet i'm still able to play hard and really enjoy everything. I finally have a group of friends that i have been wanting for so long. Were all just tight knit and it's great just to have dinners with them or all the random fun activities we can go out and do. My heart really hurt a lot coming into this year and it really has just repaired amazingly in such a short period. People come into your life when ya need it. I also came into this year believing that a good guy with good intentions didn't exist and i think i may have actually been proved wrong.

Then i have made the decision to move to California in may. Well why would i choose to move if i love my life so much here? There are several reasons to it.
1. I miss my sister and her boyfriend and i really want to be by them
2. I've lived in Utah almost my entire life and think it would be great to try a completely different place
3. I've always wanted to live in California and it has always been a dream of mine to go to school there at some point
4. I really think it will be an adventure and a good way to grow. I need to live my life more then just remaining in the same place.

As planned i will be in Santa Cruz the entire summer. If i love it and don't get too homesick from my family and friends, then i will stay. Though i may come back to Utah State. I do love it here and don't want to completely leave my friends and family. We'll just have to see.

Though i just can't believe how amazing everything is. Family, friends, guy, work, school. Everyone in my life is doing well. My grandma has miraculously gotten so much better. I love seeing her feeling well and happy again. I truly have never been so happy and i am really proud of what i am making of myself. I never thought i would be able to be a staff writer for my universities newspaper, though i am doing it and i continue to grow. I also was just really happy i got into school in California and am taking the risk and having my own little adventure to go out there. I feel a large sense of accomplishment and fulfillment and it is such a wonderful feeling. It's just all good things to update.

And here's to the start of sophomore year

It's still hard to believe i've already finished a year. I was helping freshman friends move into their dorms and it felt like yesterday that i was moving into the LLC. This year has already started off incredibly and i can't wait to see what the year has to hold. I LOVE my classes. I can tell it's going to be a lot of work though they are all so interesting so it will be wonderful. I also got hired on with the statesmen. I'm in a trial run right now though if all goes well then i will be kept on. I am so excited for it. Then i also have decided to go greek this year. I think it will be great and i do hope all goes well.

The end of this summer did not end on a high note. My second job had turned out to be a scam and i had close friends backstabbing me left and right. Also some money issues at the time even though they are resolved now. I was just so stressed and upset with everything that i really just wanted to shut down. Then someone i had feelings for just up and walked away without any explanation. It came to the point though that i wouldn't take people hurting me and if they do then they are out of my life. That is what i did with every single one of them. I really am happier because of it. If someone is like that then why should i have them in my life? There is no reason why i should. If you lose my trust, then you lose my friendship. Everything happened wonderfully though at the start of this school year. I look around at all my friends and i have never had so many friends and especially close ones. It apparently wasn't a loss to let friendships go. I feel so greatful to have a wonderful best friend too. Were just so much alike and i really can tell her anything. I don't feel like she's ever trying to be in competition in me too like some friends have been. She has been absolutely amazing. Also even within a week i have made several great friends and met some damn cute guys that i am actually close to now. Everything works out the way it should. I just had to tough it all out.

I'm sure this year will be great. I also can't wait to see my sister next month. I am losing my mind without her and Adam. There are so many things i'm excited for right now. Anyways that all i have to update. Peace!